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Ola
It’s been a month since I last posted something. I blame it on the haze. Or maybe I’ve been busy since I left yall the last time. The month passed quickly and without a hitch for my fasting. The season’s for reflection on what I’ve done for the past year and for the blissful happy people out there, Hari Raya Aidilfitri or Eid Mubarak is NOT Islam’s new year.
I’ve been contemplating deeply (I think) about what I really want and yes, I’ve brought a lot of happiness to a lot of people around me, unfortunately, I come with a baggage of sorrow too.Aside with the stereotypical and generic description of me being a "nice guy" and "brilliant as a friend" (I’ve never understood that part yet), I’ve come across people calling me brazen, nonchalant, blatant, nondescript and pan-faced with my comments and opinions. Yes, I may have the high capacity of self-criticism and insult threshold on par with treason but what I cannot fathom is the insecurities I feel whenever I don’t see eye-to-eye with something.
What is it with me and my nonsensical barrage of "gabbing"?
Is it wrong for me to say what I assume is rational?
Alas, nothing will answer me but I’ve figured that everyone was and will never be the same. One person to the next, are all different. That’s what makes everyone special though. My relatively conscious mind that makes everyone that means to me a lot more Special.
I seek everyone’s forgiveness for what I’ve said before and will in the future that may involuntarily cause hurt to you.
Selamat Hari Raya everyone.
Keep ya hats on.
